Today...

It's almost 8 pm and I just decided to sit down and write this post. I'm punching it out one handed whilst feeding a baby who was more than patient while I wrestled his 2 older siblings to bed tonight (sans husband who is working late tonight). Today has been accomplished on 3 hours of broken sleep from last night (thanks to my 2 year old), a mid morning drive to force said 2 year old (who has refused naps since her second birthday last May) to take a nap, and graham crackers. That's right. Graham crackers. This morning I texted my husband and ask him how I was suppose to be a loving and patient mother today with such little sleep. He texted back a very uncharacteristic response. "Lots of candy." Well, we didn't have any candy so I ate graham crackers. I think they might have helped too so, when in doubt, eat sweets to help you survive your day. Now, mind you, I am also attempting to remain a lovingandpatientmotheronverylittlesleep while doing my least favorite parenting task. I'll give you a hint. It starts with a P and ends with otty training. Ugh. It's going ok but in still don't care for it. Now, I don't tell you all of this for you to feel bad for me. This is motherhood. The good, the bad, and the ugly. It's days like today where I sit back (after the kids are in bed) and think about what I did wrong for the day, and perhaps what I did right. It's days like today where I am more inspired to make goals for myself. Things I want to improve on personally and as a wife and mother. I mean, ask me what I was thinking at noon and my mushed brain would have spit out something about a quesadilla and maybe some soiled underwear. But in the now quite house, with my sweet baby cooing in my arms and my dog curled up by my side, I'm not thinking about the toys that are surrounding me or the kitchen that needs cleaned. I'm thinking about my awesome and crazy kids and what I can do to be the best mom possible for them. So I guess it's important for me to have days like these. They keep me focused. Goal oriented. Motivated. So I'll take it. But so help me if I don't get sleep tonight tomorrow nights goals will likely consist of a massage and a whole lotta candy.